Thursday, March 23, 2006
The trip to D.C.
My darling, lovely, wonderful husband assured me that everything was close together or could be easily reached by the fantastical and majestic Metro subway (it was close together in comparison to the distance between the world's continents I guess). So, I bought a new pair of shoes for the trip the night before we left. Yes ladies, you understand where I'm going with this. I had athletic shoes I had planned on wearing, but come on - I couldn't wear white, yellow and green athletic shoes with a cute pink top! So, I found a nice pair of brown shoes (my old ones had no soles left) that were marked half off $100, so I got them for $50. A great pair of walking shoes the salesman told me.
So, I figured that I wouldn't be doing that much walking so a new pair of good quality shoes would be fine. Ha! We walked to the White House, about twice as far than we expected. That was fine, I was in D.C. for Heaven's sakes. The half-wit security guard at the White House viewing area said "oh, the Lincoln Memorial is just a couple blocks that way." So, the hubby and I merrily trodge toward the Lincoln Memorial. He, an American history buff and huge fan of D.C. was anxious to show me the sites. Me, a happy wife, joyous that the hubby could show me around his favorite city. And curious to see the big, pretty buildings I always saw on tv.
We walk about 6 or 7 blocks and FINALLY got to Constitution Ave. Granted, this was about 11 p.m. (on St. Patty's day - lots of drunks) so it was fully dark. I looked way in the distance and say, "honey, is that the Lincoln Memorial waaaaaaaaay over there?" He said yes. I kept going, determined to see this damned building. After walking for-freaking-ever around a body of water and past some drunks, we finally make it to the building.
I was cold with numb ears, but hey - I was in D.C.! Tough it out sister! So we looked at the memorial and the hubby was probably getting annoyed with my constant comments like "I wish I could sit on his lap" or "wouldn't it be fun to stand up there and pretend to pick his nose?" He was trying to share the historical significance of the writings on the wall and I was acting like a five-year-old.
We're done looking around and I had finished snapping pictures of everything so we decide to ask the friendly security guard at the memorial where the nearest Metro stop was. "Take Foggy Bottom, it's just a couple of blocks that way." He pointed in a direction that covered a several block width, but we figured we would just keep moving and ask someone else.
A local narrowed the direction for us, but he was a bit drunk and we couldn't understand his specific instructions. So we approached a security guard booth at a parking garage. He, too, pointed in a general vicinity of the district saying "a few blocks that way." Riiiiiight.
We were pretty fed up so we grabbed a taxi to go back to the hotel (it was about 30 degrees outside, not up for much more walking). Upon arrival back at Roach Motel, there was an enlarged map on the wall outlining the Metro stations. Lo and behold, the Foggy Bottom station was just as far as our hotel was from Lincoln Memorial, but in the opposite direction! So my new shoes got a couple miles in on their first day.
I won't even talk about the next day...my poor hubby had to put up with a permanent scowl on my face when every step felt like I was walking on swords with no water to drink. But my new shoes now look and feel worn and weathered. Yes, I'm done whining. I wasn't grumpy just because my feet hurt, but we made such an effort to get to the Capitol/Supreme Court/Library of Congress area and the first two buildings were closed for tours! Luckily I found a fantastic little area near the Capitol (I'll post a picture tomorrow). We waited about 30 minutes in line to get in to the Library of Congress to then find out you can go into the viewing room unless you do their group tour, which didn't take off for another 45 minutes. Poor hubby, he really wanted to show me the neat buildings and I really wanted to see them. Especially the blood stain on the floor of the House of Reps, or is it the Senate, but I digress.
All in all I had a great time. It's a cool city, granted I barely left my hotel room outside of the conference after the hubby flew home Sunday. The conference was good, it was about media relations and it was interesting to hear what reporters had to say.
I accidentally packed a book I was trying to finish for a contest judging in the carry-on that was in the overhead bin. I was in the window seat in a row of people I didn't know, and they fell asleep. So, I didn't get my book. But it forced me to work on my story and I edited the first two chapters and added a couple of scenes. Hopefully it will be ready for a couple of upcoming contests.
I also updated my Web site a bit. I encourage you to stop by the links page and visit the WRITE-ONS! pages - a writing group working to finish our WIP's by August 1, led by the fantastic Michelle Rowen.
Hopefully I'll have some photos of my trip to post tomorrow.
iPod divinity
Put your iPod/iTunes on shuffle. Say the following questions alout and press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question. No cheating!
1) How does the world see you?
"Hella Good" by No Doubt - ohhh yeah, but hella good at what? Hopefully writing... :-)
2) Will I have a happy life?
"Love Machine" by The Miracles - I take that as a resounding yes!
3) What do my friends think of me?
"Saturday Night" by Bay City Rollers - what? That I'm fun on a Saturday night or avoid me like the plague?
4) Do people secretly lust after me?
"Come on Home" by Franz Ferdinand - I that as a resounding yes too! Mrrowr!
5) How can I make myself happy?
"Let Me put My Love Into You" by AC/DC - uhh...umm...I'm getting my mind out of the gutter...
6) What should I do with my life?
"Larger than Life" by Backstreet Boys - very inspirational
7) Will I ever have children?
"Somebody Told Me" by The Killers - told me what damnit! Will I or won't I????
8) What is some good advice for me?
"I Will Survive" by Gloria Gaynor - that's a little creepy...that song fit a little too well with the question...
9) How will I be remembered?
"A Little Bit Me, A Little Bit You" by The Monkees - I'll interpret that as I'll be remembered along with my hubby, myself being the better half of course! :-)
10) What's my signature dancing song?
"Need You Tonight" by INXS - hell yes! That's almost as good as "Devil Inside," by the REAL INXS of course, not this new lead singer crap.
11) What's my current theme song?
"I Think We're Alone Now" by Tiffany - kick ass! I love this song. That or "Take on Me" by A-Ha will always be my theme song.
12) What do others think is my current theme song?
"Shopping for Blood" by Franz Ferdinand - I swear I'm a nice person!
13) What shall they play at my funeral?
"Sugar, We're Goin' Down" by Fall Out Boy - hahahaha! hahahahaha! That's too funny!
14) What type of men do I like?
"No One Knows" by Queens of the Stone Age - Well, okay then.
15) How's my love life?
"Cry, Little Sister (theme from The Lost Boys)" by Gerard McMann - So, per questions 2 and 4 I'm a great lover, so if I am crying about my love life, who's fault is that? A-hem. :-)
These are too funny! And some fit the question a little too well... I wonder if iPod/iTunes questioning will become a new form of divinity...
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Review: Laurell K. Hamilton's "Micah" & more
I'm sorry but I just couldn't keep my mouth shut on this one. I read Laurell K. Hamilton's Micah. Let me begin by saying that I thoroughly enjoyed all of the Anita series, even the last couple. I read how awful they were, but I still liked them. I also really liked Micah and wanted to learn more about him. So imagine my excitement when I learned a book about him was coming out! I anticipated learning what was behind some of his looks and seeing if the other foot would drop in relation to his acceptance of Anita.
I was happy to learn how he became a lycanthrope and he opened up more about things that made him jealous. But that's it! I expected more to come out. The book was so short, it takes me longer to read stories in anthologies! And the way the publisher added a bazillion blank pages between chapters, probably to add length or something. Who knows...
But I was pretty disappointed. Now, I trust the Anita series enough to read Danse Macabre as soon as it comes out. However, I know I won't be looking forward to it with the same enthusiasm. I just have to keep telling myself that it has to be hard to satisfy such a large group of people after a dozen books, and a new husband *ahem*.
Then there's the excerpt from Danse Macabre in the back. Ronnie is such a bitch. She's been bugging the crap out of me for the past couple of books but that was the last straw.
Back to reality. I had three fillings today. I was so nervous about going to the dentist, one of my many medical fears. But it went well, lots of laughing gas :-) Two more fillings next week...
Looking forward to the weekend, I'm going to Washington D.C. for the first time for a conference. The hubby is coming with for the weekend. Good times.
I also decided to enter a few writing contests, four to be exact. All with deadlines throughout April so I need to get my butt in gear. I'm dreading the synopsis because it will force me to map out the rest of my book. :-(
Monday, March 13, 2006
My nemesis
I got fed up with my resistance to a liquid that could give me instant energy so I bough creamer at the store yesterday. Cinnamon vanilla creamer to be exact. I figured that with a healthy cup or two of sugar would take away that nasty flavor. Plus I have a nifty coffee cup with my family crest etched in it. Perfect way to keep that energy flowing, right?
Here is the coffee I made this morning with my newfound dedication. Nice and light colored, full of creamer and sugar. Should be perfect for the beginning drinker, right?

No. I wanted to throw up. The spice of the cinnamon taste led me to believe that it would be a pleasant experience, mixed with the sweetness of the sugar. But soon after swallowing my taste buds began stomping their angry feet at the bitter aftertase that took over.

Yup, that was me. Minus the short gray hair and man's body. You get the point, it was gross. So I guess that leaves me with old faithful:
The pièce de résistance. Diet Coke has never let me down. It rarely gives me a bite upon drinking, other than when the cannister needs replacing or it's expired. And the glorious flavor, in order of favorite: fountain, bottle, can. Yes, they do taste different.
Does anyone have suggestions on how I can get over my fear of coffee? I really need the energy kick in the a.m., mid-morning, early afternoon, afternoon, early evening, evening and night.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Bad Lisa, bad
Anyhoo I'm back and stalling on my writing again. :-) Actually I'm doing ok in the MS department. I've got about 14k of draft zero. I hope to reach 20k by the end of the weekend so I can focus some time on revising the first couple of chapters. There are a couple of contests coming up that I thought I would give a try.
I'm also excited because I won a giveaway this week for a copy of Lover Eternal by J.R. Ward, courtesy of Paperback Writer. A couple of weeks ago I won a giveaway for a copy of Blondes Have More Felons by Alesia Holliday. I'm stoked about that too and I still haven't used the $25 gift card to Barnes & Noble I won from Michelle Rowen. I can't decide what to use it on, I keep changing my mind :-) It's too precious to waste. I'm looking for a coupon, then I'll use it. I guess I can never complain that I don't win anything...Lucky Lisa - that's my new name.
I also watched an episode of Mindfreak yesterday. Damn I love that show. Criss Angel... :-) And an episode of Little Britain on BBC. Anyone ever see that? It's awesome. I love TV.
And The Libertine comes out tomorrow with Johnny Depp. Mrrroooooowr. I am pissed of though because I accidentaly deleted my "blog" folder from my favorites, so I'm trying to reconstruct the blogs I read daily in my favorites folder. It sucks and it's hard. Pooey.
-end of random thoughts-
Monday, February 27, 2006
Sterling progress, indeedI
Today was a wonderful day for writing. As I mentioned in my last post I did some plotting and outlining over the weekend. Today was the official start of the official "Write Along with Katie (MacAlister). When she begins a new book several of her fans post their writing progress along with hers. So I'm joining in and my daily goal is 1,500 words.
My muse, I have named her Persephone, was on a freaking roll today. I have logged over 6,000 words. Three days worth, woohoo! I need to get ahead too since I'm not sure how much I'll get done this weekend. I have a conference that entails drinking most of the night and sleeping most of the day. The conference itself is lame, it's the hospitality suites that are worth the trip. Not to mention it's at the beach. Who knows, maybe some Stoli's vodka and Everclear, mixed with a beachfront rental, will inspire some exciting prose.
Don't worry, if I do write drunk and if it's super silly - I'll be sure to share my drunken musings on Monday. Maybe I should give it a try... I know, I'll write a sex scene when I'm drunk. That should be interesting.
Back to my progress. Oh wait, Gerard just got clocked on the back of the head with a heavy sword. He's gone, back to Phantom...pausing while I change the channel...oh it's the lame guy. Anyway, back to my progress, again. Most of it was new writing, but some of it was rewriting of what I had before. Oh! There's Gerard and his sexy half face! Man, this other guy is a tool.
Jeez, this is distracting. So to sum it up 2,000 words of blogging later (sheesh), today was a good day for writing. Hopefully I can get a lot done tomorrow too. Now I'm going to go back and finish re-reading Katie MacAlister's "A Girl's Guide to Vampires." I've been taking notes on the plot points while reading it. I think it will help me pace my own novels. I'm going to give that a try with a few books.
But wait! You may be asking, "Lisa, what about the writing nook you built over the weekend that you were so excited about? I thought you were going to write there to get away from the tv. You dirty liar."
My response is, jeez, quick to judge, eh? Awww, Gerard just picked up the rose. Poor baby, I'll sooth his pain. Hubba hubba. ;-) Back to your snippy question. The chair gave me a killer backache yesterday, so I need to find a new on. And why are you on my case? I tripled my daily goal! Jeez louise! Just kidding, I need people like you to keep me on my toes.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Writing on track
*I went through several drawers of random papers and filed them or threw them away so that I can prepare for taxes and organize the office
*I prepared a nifty writing nook in the office. I took a couple of those plastic drawer stands, the ones with three drawers, and laid a piece of wood across the top. A perfect makeshift table. I put my writing books there, writing supplies, charts, etc. Now I can write when I get home from work - away from the damn TV
*I finished Laurell K. Hamilton's Incubus Dreams - done with the Anita Blake series. Oh wait, Micah comes out on Tuesday. Damn! Good news, I finally read Bitten & Smitten by Michelle Rowen. It's been waiting patiently for me to finish the Anita Blake series. I took advantage of the break until Micah and I devoured it. It was a fantastic book! I'm going to read it again in a couple weeks because I plan to make a plot chart of a few of my favorite books so I can get a good idea for pacing and plot movements.
*And most importantly - I got a good understanding and outline of my book going. I had already written about 10k, but I hit a wall with the plot. I knew where I needed it to end up, but I just couldn't get there. But now I think I got it.
Here's the new goal: first draft complete on April 21st. Not before, not after. That is my birthday and if I write 1,500 words per day I'll hit my 90k goal on that day. It's a Friday so I already had planned to go drinking with a couple of friends, now I can add celebrating the completion of the first draft. Sounds good to me, more reason to chug some vodka. Stoli's baby, yeah.
Some of my plot points have changed enough that I have to start over with the writing. But I think I can salvage a large chunk of it with a rewrite, so hopefully I can get ahead of the goal. I've got major turning points and plot things briefly outlined through the middle of the book. I figure that once I get a better idea of the story, characters, etc. plotting the second half will come easier.
Boy am I babbling tonight. I guess I just spent too much time thinking this weekend ;-)
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Snarkling unscathed
A question I sent to Miss Snark made it on her blog today, and I made it through unscathed. No scoffing, laughing or general poking fun. Her response was pretty helpful. If you're interested, here 'tis.
I'm also super pumped to have been added to Michelle Rowen's sidebar! I recommend that EVERYONE read her blog, including her past postings. See my reasoning here.
I also got the program NewNovelist. It's pretty helpful for general information and notes about characters, locations, story events, etc. I like it because I can keep all the information in one place without 100 pages in Microsoft Word or a bazillion different files. I can easily click to the hero if I feel like adding witty things he would say, past experiences, etc. Me likey the program. Teehee, just had a memory of SNL's "you like-eh-da-sauce?" skit. I like the one with Kirstie Alley (sp?) where she's on her honeymoon or something and the guys are practically molesting her. Good times.
Update: Business cards are expensive and self-printing is a crock. Things are super cheap until I mention that I want to print in black ink on the back then things go haywire and the price goes up exponentially. How can printing full color on the front be cheap but black ink on the back makes it crazy? I mean I can understand it, I've worked with print jobs but it does nothing to lessen my frustration.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Funny joke
"I can't find it"
MEANS: It didn't fall into my outstretched hands, so I am completely clueless.
"Will you marry me?"
MEANS: Both of my roommates have moved out, I can't find the washer, and there's no peanut butter left.
"It's a guy thing."
MEANS: There's no rational thought pattern connected with it, and you have no chance at all of making it logical.
"Can I help with dinner?"
MEANS: Why isn't it already on the table?
"It would take too long to explain"
MEANS: I have no idea how it works.
"Take a break, honey, you're working too hard."
MEANS: I can't hear the game over the vacuum cleaner.
"That's interesting dear."
MEANS: Are you still talking?
"Honey, we don't need material things to prove our love."
MEANS: I forgot our anniversary again.
"You know how bad my memory is."
MEANS: I remember the words to the theme song of F-Troop, the address of the first girl I kissed, and the vehicle identification number of every car I've ever owned, but I forgot your birthday.
"I was just thinking about you, and got you these roses."
MEANS: The girl selling them on the corner was a real babe, and was wearing a thong bikini.
"Oh, don't fuss, I just cut myself, it's no big deal."
MEANS: I have actually severed a limb, but will bleed to death before I admit I'm hurt.
"She's one of those rabid feminists."
MEANS: She refused to make my coffee.
"I heard you."
MEANS: I haven't the foggiest clue what you just said, and hope I can fake it well enough, so that you don't spend the next three days yelling at me.
"You know I could never love anyone else."
MEANS: I am used to the way YOU yell at me, and realize it could be worse.
"You really look terrific in that outfit."
MEANS: Please don't try on one more outfit, I'm starving.
"I missed you."
MEANS: I can't find my sock drawer, the kids are hungry, and we're out of toilet paper.
"I don't need to read the instructions."
MEANS: I am perfectly capable of screwing it up without printed help.
Summary done, almost
Option 1:
Bianca Embry's boring but content life was turn upside down when her best friend asked for help. She was forced to use the psychic abilities she's grown to despise, while the investigation led her to the alluring and dangerous vampire Dorian Buchan.
Bianca must balance her growing attraction to Dorian, her unpredictable psychic abilities and the dark secrets she learns of her family and their vampire hunting legacy.
Option 2:
Bianca Embry thought she was content with her life, but when her best friend asked for help and introduced her to the alluring yet dangerous vampire Dorian Buchan, she realized her life wasn't what it seemed.
Bianca must balance her growing attraction to Dorian, her unpredictable psychic abilities and the dark secrets she learns of her family and their vampire hunting legacy.
Anyone have an opinion on either one? I was going to print business cards myself but I'm having problems with the paper and my printer. So I am either going to FedEx Kinko's or Vista printing online. I'm really not just stalling on writing, I swear! I think having this little blurb will help me keep the gist of my story at the front of my brain. Yeah, yeah, more excuses.
Brief summaries are HARD
I figured it should be 25 or 30 words. You know, brief. Riiiiight. I've narrowed it down to 90 words. This is very difficult, but I know it needs to be done. It's like crafting an elevator speech, but I'll call this a "passing by in the bathroom" speech - it has to be that quick. I think. Or is 80 or 90 words ok? It fits fine on the card, but I figure agents and editors want to see that you can succinctly summarize your book because the PR/marketing people will have to do it too.
I haven't even finished the damn book and I'm worrying about other things. Why am I neurotic? No, it's not neurotic, it's business savvy. Right? Sure? Right? No? Ok. Oh well. It's easier than writing right now so I'm doing it. So neener-neener-pumpkin-eater.
In other news, I forgot to rinse out my pink coffee travel mug thingie yesterday. I don't drink coffee so why would I have one? Well, I have this fantastic thing called the Magic Bullet. You may have seen the informercial, it's enthralling. Folks, it actually works. Honest to God, I don't get paid to pump there stuff (unless you want to pay me Magic Bullet people), it's awesome. I make fruit smoothies before work each morning and within 30 seconds it blends about 6 ice cubes, a banana, about 8 frozen strawberries and water. There are no ice chunks, it's completely smooth. And the nifty blending cup you use makes just enough smoothie for my BEAUTIFUL coffee/smoothie mug. Back to the story at hand, I get sidetracked when thinking of the Magic Bullet. I forgot to rinse the fruit smooth residue and now it smells like rotten fruit. Pooh.
Here is a picture of my BEAUTIFUL coffe mug (and the pretty pink business cards that I'm proud of). My nifty cell phone takes pictures and I don't use that option enough, so I figure I'll be taking more pictures of random things for my blog. I'm easily amused.
Monday, February 20, 2006
Feeling stuck again
My heroine is going to help solve a crime during the book. I had a crime in mind that led her to the hero, but it's just not working for me. So now I have to think of a new crime, arrghh. Does anyone know of a cool Web site that gives situations for crimes? I could use some inspiration.
I've also just decided not to go to the Romantic Times convention. I'm bummed, but I think it's for the best. The hubby and I want to buy a house and that $1,000 or so would look better in our savings account than being used on a conference. Hopefully I can make it to the RWA convention in July instead. And I'll definitely have my book done by then. The good news is that since I'm no longer taking a week of vacation for that convention, I can take a week off another time. So I'm taking a week off in March. Hopefully I'll get a ton done on the book.
Goal for today: Think of new crime as basis for my story that will keep the hero and heroine interacting throughout the book and write at least 1,000 words.
New hero inspiration
I had planned that Gerard Butler was going to be the inspiration for my hero, Dorian. Mostly how he looked in Dracula 2000, I like longer hair for vampires. Here's an example:

How could you say no to his eternal kiss? Eh? Am I right? Of course I am.
But, last week I caught a show I've always wanted to see - Mindfreak. It's about a guy named Criss Angel who does magic things, phsyic-esque things, etc. Totally fantastic show and Criss Angel is wonderful. He is now my new Dorian in the vamp series I'm working on. He fits it perfectly, so I'll save lovely Gerard for another day :-) Oh yeah, and Johnny Depp.
Here is a couple of pictures of Criss Angel:

Friday, February 17, 2006
Will. Write. Damnit.
Here's the math breakdown for all you geeks out there (like me). Three months to the day until the convention begins, approximately 90 days. Well, your first reaction may be - "Lisa, all you have to do is write 1,000 words a day and you'll be set!" Then I laugh in your face at your imprudence. Poor naive fool. You think my first draft will satisfy me? Ha! I scoff at you.
No, no, no, I'm just joking. You're not stupid, just common sense challenged ;-). So, 90 days, 90k words. Here's the plan - first draft done in two months. That gives me one month to revise and prepare a synopsis for the convention. Can I actually do this, you ask, again. We'll see.
I'm at 10k now, so I guess I just need 80k or so. That's about 1,333 words a day. Holy shit! Am I doing NaNoWriMo again? What the fuck? Excuse the language but that math does not please me.
(Stop bitching Lisa, you want to finish this book so that if an agent or editor happens to request it you can send it to them relatively close to the end of the convention). Yes, that's right. Yes, thank you inner diva.
To kick start this beotch, I hope to reach 15k by the end of the weekend. Wish me luck and send me chocolate vibes, that may help. I need some diet coke... Thank goodness for the Alphasmart 3000 or I would probably spend the writing time playing Age of Mythology.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Michelle Rowen's blog
I learned of her first release "Bitten & Smitten" on Katie MacAlister's forum. So, sometime last fall I began reading her blog daily. It's fantastic. Funny, informative, and especially inspirational. So I decided to read all her blog entries from the last couple of years. You may think I'm crazy, but I just decided to do it. I didn't do it in one sitting or anything, don't worry. But I read a couple of month's worth a day during my lunch break.
You should take the time to do this, especially earlier ones, because it chronicles her journey from unpublished to published. It's very exciting to read about her getting an agent, then getting "the call," editing the CONTRACTED manuscript, etc. It renewed my confidence and got me moving faster toward finishing my MS. She's living the real thing. Wanted to be a writer, so she wrote. Tried to get published, so she did. Still working the day job, at least for now. Struggles with finding time to write, like many of us.
It's very inspirational. Her entries represent what so many of us think and worry about. My MS isn't good enough. What if this one book is a fluke? What if no one buys it? What if it gets poor reviews? It's very real, not to mention totally funny and links to fantabulous quizzes! I think that's why it took me so long to go through, I did all the quizzes and games, I mean ALL of them.
So - read Michelle's blog. Buy "Bitten and Smitten" and pre-order "Angel with Attitude." Damn it now!
Confession time: I've had "Bitten and Smitten" waiting patiently for me for a couple of weeks. I had meant to read it the day it came out because I had been anticipating it since the fall, but I made a poor decision. I started the Anita Blake series just before BS came out. And I'm sure you can understand how difficult that series is to put down. I'm almost done with Circulean Sins, so BS will get my undivided attention in a couple of days. Michelle, I'm sorry that I have neglected your book, but after reading your blog, I'm sure you can understand about the LKH thing. I just have to get to Incubus Dreams since everyone seems to be up in arms about it.
And Michelle totally posted on my journal recently. I was super tickled! (Thanks Michelle!)
Friday, February 10, 2006
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Current writing thoughts
1) Writing is hard. Don't get me wrong, I love it, but man can it be hard. You have to make sure it's interesting with believable characters. It has to be original, but something that the reader can relate to. Since my books are a series, I have to make some plot points spread out so people would want to read the other books.
2) I need an agent. I don't know why I care at this point since my manuscript isn't finished. But I know that it is a step to eventually take and when it comes to something I want, I'm not always patient.
3) I wish there were 30 hours in a day. I would devote 3 of those to sleep and 3 to writing. Maybe 2:4 - if I'm feeling motivated. I would get things done a lot faster that way.
4) I'm scared shitless of revisions. I think that's why I'm moving a bit slower at the writing - I know I'm going to end up changing it all anyway. At least I'm not editing as I go, I would never finish a book that way.
5) What if I can't do this? What if I have immersed myself into the writing world and community as much as I possibly could and as fast as I could and it doesn't work? What if I spend hundreds and hundreds of hours writing, editing, shopping for agents and publishers, and it doesn't ever sell and I resort to self-publishing. What if I fail? But then I think, I've wanted to be a novelist since I was very young. I would rather fail than never try and wonder if I could do it.
6) When I finish my manuscript, I think I will print it on multiple colors of paper and use it as wallpaper. That will be my writing room. Yes, that sounds like a glorious idea.
7) Will my husband be angry if I plaster our walls with my manuscript?
8) I wonder if the RT conference is worth the money and vacation time. It seems great on paper and from what I hear, but that's a big financial committment.
9) I hope my vampire world is creative enough to be interesting and liked by people. I hope it's not too much like anyone else's. Reading vampire romance makes it difficult to be original, but it helps with ideas and seeing how much can be done. Catch-22.
10) It's hard to focus on one manuscript when another idea is nagging at me. Maybe I should just outline the books in my head and move on.
End of rant. I don't feel any less clouded. Maybe it takes time. But now I can move on to working on my manuscript so that I actually have the right to be freaking out. Right now I'm simply a poser.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Good writing retreat
Well, this one wasn't so relaxing. The house was practically on the sand, only about 10 feet of sea grass separated us from the beach. The wind was up to 80 miles an hour, according to the news reports after the storm. There were reports of swells off the coast and a chance for flooding, which would have been bad news for the basement of the house and our cars. The front of the house came to a point, like a beak, and was almost all windows. The glass was bending back and forth with the strong wind. The logical side of me knew they were built to withstand that, but seeing the reflection of the lamps moving back and forth in the glass was unnerving. The wind howled all night long. I don't think any of us slept more than an hour or two. I kept waking up and feeling the house shaking under the wind. But it was fun. There's something thrilling about being scared of a storm that is out of your control.
The writing side of the trip was great too. It was very beneficial talking to people who have been writing romance for a while, and some published, to hear what they had to say. We did something called story magic where we all brought our story ideas. Then we sat together and brainstormed the inciting incident, long range goal, short range goal, relationship barrier, black moment, reliazation and character flaw for both the hero and heroine. It is much easier to write once you have the main points and themes outline like that. I also got a lot of great ideas with the ladies for my book series. Now I just have to write them.
I know the main events that will happen in all of the books and the sub plots, but I need to develop the hero and heroine more and why they are interested in each other. I also need to think of some ways to make my vampires unique compared to others that are in books.
All in all it was definitely worth the weekend and I enjoyed getting to know these lovely ladies.

